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Publisher's Summary

A raw, compelling memoir of baseball, family, fame, addiction, and recovery, by one of the most beloved baseball players of his generation.

How does it feel to be born with enormous gifts, in a life shadowed by tragedy? What does it mean when the gift that opens the world for us is not enough to stop us from losing the things we love? And what new gifts do we find in that loss?

Baseball had been CC Sabathia’s life since he was a kid in gritty, baseball-obsessed Vallejo, California. He was a star by the time he was a preteen and a professional athlete when he was still a teenager. Everything he knew about how to be a person - an adult, a husband and father, a leader - he learned in rhythm with the baseball season, the every-fifth-day high-intensity spotlight of a starting pitcher, all while dealing with one of the sport’s most turbulent eras: racism in a sport with diminishing Black presence; the era of performance-enhancing drugs; and the increasing tension between high-value contracts and sports owners who moved players around like game pieces. But his biggest struggle was with his own body and mind: Buoyed his whole life by talent and a fiery competitive spirit, CC found himself dealing with the steady and eventually alarming breakdown of his own body and his growing addiction in a world that encouraged and enabled it.

Till the End is the thrilling memoir of one of the most beloved players in the game, a veteran star of the sport’s marquee team during its latest championship era. It’s also a book about baseball - about the ins and outs of its most important and technical position and its evolution in this volatile era. But woven within it is the moving, universal story of resilience and mortality and discovering what matters.

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©2020 Carsten Charles Sabathia and Chris Smith (P)2021 Random House Audio

Critic Reviews

“Former All-Star Yankees pitcher Sabathia brings the heat in his unsparing debut about overcoming his years long battle with alcoholism.... Despite his professional successes - from getting signed to the Cleveland Indians in 2001 as the youngest player ‘in the entire American League’ to joining the New York Yankees in 2008 and winning the World Series - he got into drunken street brawls and even crashed a car into a tree. In 2015, he checked himself into rehab and went public with his addiction on Good Morning America. ‘The love that came back was a revelation,’ he recalls. ‘I was free.’ Those in search of inspiration need look no further.” (Publishers Weekly)

“One of the best pitchers of his generation - and often the only Black man on his team - shares an extraordinary life in baseball.... In 2001, after three seasons in the minor leagues, Sabathia became the youngest player in MLB (age 20). His career took off from there, and in 2008, he signed with the New York Yankees for seven years and $161 million, at the time the largest contract ever for a pitcher. With the help of Vanity Fair contributor Smith, Sabathia tells the entertaining story of his 19 seasons on and off the field.... This book represents an excellent launching point for Jay-Z’s new imprint, Roc Lit 101. Everything about Sabathia is larger than life, yet he tells his story with honesty and humility.” (Kirkus Reviews, starred review) 

“Beautifully rendered.... Till the End is more than an account of alcoholism. It has plenty of stirring baseball moments, from Yankee Stadium going silent when Derek Jeter shattered his ankle in a playoff game to C.C. recording his 3,000th strikeout (one of three lefties ever to reach that mark).... The author’s candor humanizes the game. . . . Readers and fans will be rooting for him to enter the Hall of Fame and rooting even harder for him to stay sober.” (The Wall Street Journal)

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  • Nick
  • 09-07-2021

Not Quite What I Expected

The point of the sample audio, for me anyway, is to see if I can handle listening to the narrator. In this case, the sample is chapter 1 and it is read by CC himself. And he does a fine job! But, the rest of the book is read by someone else and you don't get to hear them until you buy the book. I guess CC just didn't want to read the whole book, which is unfortunate.

I like how he intertwined the alcoholism issue throughout the book and the background he provided to give it some context. Thanks for sharing your story CC. But, be ready for CC to violate his "no politics in the locker room" philosophy in this book.

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  • RKN
  • 11-09-2021

Till the End, a must listen

I worked in professional sports for 11+ years. I have also read many autobiographies. However, none as insightful, raw, funny and revealing as this one. In addition, the battle with addiction highlights that income doesn’t make you immune from life’s problems. Kudos to CC for owning and sharing his story.

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  • BG
  • 10-09-2021

Great Book - Thank You CC!

I have been a CC fan since he was traded to the Brewers in 2008 and led them into the playoffs on his back for the first time in over 25 years. Always knowing he was an outstanding baseball player, I never knew that he had such personal struggles throughout his entire life. CC really holds nothing back about everything he went through as a kid, a ball player, and an amazing talent. CC is more humbled by his talents than many, and this book is a perfect blend of stories from an extraordinary career, yet stories of personal and untold struggles with alcohol, deaths of loved ones, and racial inequities. As one reads or listens to the book, you can feel and appreciate CC’s honestly and humility as he describes the details of his successes and challenges. From the pure baseball side, CC paints an excellent picture of “the grind” of being a professional player and how hard one must work to build on their talents if they want to continue to perform at top notch. For those of you that are thinking about purchasing on Audible, one thing to note is that the narrator, Guy Lockard, tells CC’s story with great emotion and keeps you interested the entire time. As a bonus, it is pretty cool that CC himself reads the first chapter. Great book, you won’t regret purchasing it!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 15-08-2021

Great book

Awesome book and inspiring story. Just wish CC had read the whole book. The audiobook is good but I found the reading style of the performer, specifically the intonation, to be distracting and misaligned with what was being read at times. Reading the book as opposed to listening to it would solve this problem. Overall though, it was a great book and I would definitely recommend it.

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  • mary plunkett
  • 09-08-2021

Great Listen!

Enjoyed the honesty and genuine nature! Way to represent Vallejo CC and be such a role model to many. Keep up the great work with Pitcchin Foundation

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  • Anonymous User
  • 23-07-2021

Amazing story...huge Yankees fan and C.C fan...

Amazing story of true inspiration from an amazing player and person! Definitely a must read

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  • Scott HD DVD
  • 18-07-2021

Good Story Great book for the baseball fan

Enjoyed it. l learned a lot about CC. I'm a fan of his work with the negro league baseball museun. And I've purchased shirts from his T shirt company.

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  • Jose Diaz
  • 16-07-2021

Great book.

Inspirational. Good read. CC thank you. life lessons. Book is full of so much lessons.

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  • Marguerite Morgan
  • 13-07-2021

Vallejo's Own Does Us Proud

Great listen. Totally enjoyable. Loved how he continued to reference his (our) hometown of Vallejo.

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  • valerie62
  • 12-07-2021

Drunk and racist

Was a good story until he got into all the race nonsense. He seems pretty racist against white people if you ask me. He’s passionate about his believes but don’t oppose his views. If you’re black then this book is probably for you if you’re a BLM supporter.

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