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The Valedictorian of Being Dead
- The True Story of Dying Ten Times to Live
- Narrated by: Heather B. Armstrong
- Length: 6 hrs and 48 mins
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From New York Times best-selling author and blogger Heather B. Armstrong comes an honest and irreverent memoir - reminiscent of the New York Times best seller Brain on Fire - about her experience as the third person ever to participate in an experimental treatment for depression involving 10 rounds of a chemically induced coma approximating brain death.
For years, Heather B. Armstrong has alluded to her struggle with depression on her website, dooce. It’s scattered throughout her archive, where it weaves its way through posts about pop culture, music, and motherhood. In 2016, Heather found herself in the depths of a depression she just couldn’t shake, an episode darker and longer than anything she had previously experienced. She had never felt so discouraged by the thought of waking up in the morning, and it threatened to destroy her life. For the sake of herself and her family, Heather decided to risk it all by participating in an experimental clinical trial.
Now, for the first time, Heather recalls the torturous 18 months of suicidal depression she endured and the monthlong experimental study in which doctors used propofol anesthesia to quiet all brain activity for a full 15 minutes before bringing her back from a flatline. Ten times. The experience wasn’t easy. Not for Heather or her family. But a switch was flipped, and Heather hasn’t experienced a single moment of suicidal depression since.
“Breathtakingly honest” (Lisa Genova, New York Times best-selling author), self-deprecating, and scientifically fascinating, The Valedictorian of Being Dead brings to light a groundbreaking new treatment for depression.
The Valedictorian of Being Dead was previously published with the subtitle “The True Story of Dying Ten Times to Live.”
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- Anonymous User
- 02-11-2021
truely inspiring - I am grateful - thank you
This is my first review - amazing book - heartfelt & heart breakingly honest. Thank you very much Heather
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- Anonymous User
- 22-05-2019
Raw and Riveting
It takes a special kind of human to so share a journey so raw, so emotional and so inspiring and Heather B. Armstrong is all that and more. I was drawn to her writing way back when her blog was full of tips on How To Charm her, to read the rollercoaster she has experienced tore me apart as it is written so magnificently that you feel every word. I truly hope she continues on to be the valedictorian of living.
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- Anonymous User
- 07-06-2019
inspirational
an eye opening account of battling depression and the struggle to keep life together. This book is hope.
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