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The Heroin Diaries: 10 Year Anniversary Edition

A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star
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In honor of the 10-year anniversary of The Heroin Diaries, Nikki Sixx's definitive and best-selling memoir on drug addiction is now available on audio for the first time, read by Nikki Sixx! This shocking, gripping, and at times darkly hilarious memoir explores Nikki's yearlong war with a vicious heroin addiction. Now more than ever, with opioid addiction ravaging our country and rising by 20 percent in the past year alone, Nikki's story of both his descent into drug-addled decay and subsequent recovery and transition into a rehabilitation advocate is now more relevant than ever.

When Mötley Crüe was at the height of its fame, there wasn't any drug Nikki Sixx wouldn't do. He spent days - sometimes alone, sometimes with other addicts, friends, and lovers - in a coke and heroin-fueled daze.

The highs were high, and Nikki's journal entries reveal some euphoria and joy. But the lows were lower, often ending with Nikki in his closet, surrounded by drug paraphernalia and wrapped in paranoid delusions.

Here, Nikki shares the diary entries - some poetic, some scatterbrained, some bizarre - of those dark times.

Brutally honest, utterly riveting, and surprisingly moving, The Heroin Diaries follows Nikki during the year he plunged to rock bottom - and his courageous decision to pick himself up and start living again.

©2007 Nikki Sixx (P)2017 S&S Audio

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interesting listen for those in active addiction..

as a struggling heroin/speedball addict in and out of recovery I found the book interesting, inspirational and yet also triggering - it reminded me of what I need to do in terms of seeking and asking for help and keeping up with regular attendance and work in NA (narcotics anonymous), and the importance of honesty - both within myself and with the ppl in my life, esp my family and the recovering addicts within NA. Yet it also made me yearn for the rush of shooting speedballs and the sick fascination and purpose found in all consuming hard drug abuse. And so while having shot up a few big speedballs over the last 2 days I've also reattended NA and plan to throw myself back into step work and speak honestly with my sponsor once I run out of drugs and money tomorrow.

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Best book ever.

Wow. This was the best audiobook i’ve ever listened to. I laughed, I cried, many emotions. I’m only very young, 14, but this touched my heart and made me realise that drugs and alcohol aren’t the solution to problems and that you can have fun without them - Liv ❤️

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Amazing

Great book. Nikki and others tell great stories. I love reading the book, this took it over the top.

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May he live forever

I don’t do many books but this one has changed me. This is a story of change and acceptance. Nikki Sixx has become a legend.

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Dark read

A very sad and dark read. Kept me engaged and was very inspirational in the end

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  • 04-09-2019

Absolutely loved this book

I read a lot of music autobiographies and this has been one of the best. Raw and honest Nikki Sixx has given such an insight into the music business and addiction. I’m not even a Motley Crue fan but I have such respect for Nikki Sixx putting such deep and honest thoughts out there. What a voice and talent. I highly recommend listening to Nikki’s book.

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Epic

Best book I have ever read & listened to. I recomend this book to anyone asking what to read next

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Horrific but insightful

Raw honesty. No one could be proud of that story, but what a mind and what strength to tell that story.

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outstanding

How Nikki is still alive is nothing short of a miracle. Raw and unfiltered and shocking

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BIOGRAPHY

was a good true story down-to-earth biography. would recommend it to rock and roll lovers

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  • Anonymous User
  • 01-11-2017

Great to hear Nikki Sixx read his story.

This book will help anyone struggling with any form of drug addiction. The best book I have ever read on the subject. I had told my teens parts of the story. They won't be trying drugs any time soon.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 07-08-2019

Breathtaking

Thank you Sixx for sharing your torment and torture towards redemption. There are so many ways you help

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  • Kristin
  • 12-01-2018

What an awesome journey!

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

I would recommend this book to a friend because it is a true portrait of rock star excesses, as well as how far people who are addicted will drag themselves thorugh the much. As Nikki says... The dying is easy, It's the living that seems impossible when it's time to sober up!

What was one of the most memorable moments of The Heroin Diaries: 10 Year Anniversary Edition?

Hearing about Nikki coming to my hometown and the things he did there.

What about the narrators’s performance did you like?

That it was the author.

Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

No

Any additional comments?

What an inspiration. Nikki is one of my all time true hero's. I play bass, and too have kicked "THE" habit. I am forever in his debt. This book has helped me more than I could even explain sitting here writing an e book review!

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  • Jeffrey Allen
  • 08-08-2019

Loved it

Am now more of a Crue fan than ever. Could not stop until it was over.

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  • Matt
  • 10-01-2018

Eye opening

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I've always like Motley Crue's music, but due to being born in the late 80's, I wasn't able to experience them when they were at their height. To me, Crue was Vince and Tommy. This book opened my eyes to the real wheel behind Motley Crue, and the demons that haunted (or hunted) him.

The journey Nikki takes in that year is amazing. I couldn't stop listening.

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  • M. Young
  • 20-09-2019

How The Sausage is Made

Where do I begin? I will start with the audio info. Listening to Sixx read was awesome. I love when an author reads their memoirs or biographies. I had to give this audiobook 2 stars because the female voice here was beyond awful. It was so disgraceful to have such a terrible voice!

Onto the book:

I'll start with my expectations. I read this because I am a huge Motley Crue fan. I was 12 when I stumbled upon their music and I have loved it ever since. Through the years, I've followed them and knew about the drugs, the drinking, all the news worthy bad stuff. But I was curious about this book. I am not an addict or alcoholic, so I was afraid I wouldn't relate or I would learn things I didn't really want to know. I was right about both points.

As far a literary read, this isn't it. This is really a diary with input from people who Nikki Sixx wronged along the way. I had to adjust my expectations.

I was really shocked at how bad things were for Nikki Sixx and really the rest of Motley and their fellow musicians. I had no idea. I was actually a bit angry for the first leg of this book. I saved my allowance in a tootsie roll bank for every magazine, record, and concert ticket I could buy. I worked odd jobs, and even babysat a few times, which I hated. I worked hard for that money and it was literally flushed down the toilet in the form of heroin.

I got over that feeling. And onto a feeling I didn't expect: disgust. The way women were treated (And most jumped at the change to be treated that way, so I was angry with them as well.) was shocking. Nikki Sixx's view of women was awful then. And the fans sure didn't matter either. So I was angry about that.

I got over myself. I felt for Nikki and his life. He is painfully honest in this book. I was really grossed out. I felt like I need penicillin after reading this book.

The entries go on for a while and it gets monotonous and boring. As a reader, I yearned for more substance. I had to remind myself that this is a diary. I found Sixx a bit bragadocious. I think for me as a fan, I couldn't get over how much I loved them and how much they hated themselves. That's a hard thing for me to process. They were so unlikeable at a time when I adored them.

Here's the thing about reading memoirs. You learn how the sausage is made. Sometimes it's not what we, the readers, expect. That can be good or bad. Here, it's sad. It's so sad. And it was not just one shattered rock star, but everyone in the business. I felt sad. I felt frustrated. Did I mention it was sad?

I will say this as well - family sucks sometimes. Nikki Sixx sure wasn't the only kid that got crapped on as a child. And that is no excuse to get into drugs and become a sexist. He might not be one now, but he sure was when he was high. That hurt, too. So many of us experienced a betrayal of a parent and didn't go there. This book explains why he got hooked, and stayed that way. Addiction starts somewhere.

Hopefully Sixx will stay sober. I hope so. This is a sad book. It's honest and graphic, maddening and, well, all the feels are here. I love how he has turned his life around and I hope his life remains that way.

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  • Tyler
  • 10-08-2019

Nikki Sixx is the most influential celebrities!!!!

I have both read and listened to this book time after time, and also plan on to more times to come. I am not a person who reads books often but I can relate somewhat to it so it keeps me inspired.

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  • john schmitt
  • 07-08-2019

Perfectly done

Can’t believe how good this book is. 10/10 I related so much to that he was saying about his childhood. Sad and had me feeling so bad at points and fully gripped by the stories.

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  • Myles Gullette
  • 02-08-2019

Nikki Sixx & Co. Reveal Their Deepest...

Nikki Sixx reveals his deepest, darkest secrets in this Anniversary edition of his Heroin Diaries. Hearing him update it all the way to 2017 is beyond words great, uplifting, hopeful and miraculous. Through all the sex, drugs, rock and roll and more drugs mayhem which led to his death twice, he showed how if you blame your childhood and parents, you'll never truly be happy. Once he stopped blaming, he stopped drugs, forgave all and transformed to a 100% life and habits. If you have any major struggles in life, listening to this book will help.

Nikki as the main reader was spectacular as was voice over actor Ross Marquand. Both brought their all to voicing this and deserve major kudos. The only stumbling block to me was the voice over actor Sophie. While I'm not debating her talent, I do think she was miscast. Her voice grew annoying very quickly with all the grating qualities of the typical millineal and didn't have the sex appeal or gravitas needed to play Vanity/Denise Matthews and the many other women throughout Nikki's life that gave their own words to the book. Ross was able to transform his voice brilliantly, changing it up to the various people he inhabited. Sophie? Not even close.

Otherwise, the book was perfection and I'll never forget it. Major respect to Nikki for transforming his life in every single way to one that is today healthy, vibrant, sane, loving, intellectual, loyal, drug free and an artistic genius.

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  • VC
  • 05-02-2018

Laugh at Misfortune

What did you love best about The Heroin Diaries: 10 Year Anniversary Edition?

I loved the additions to the 10 year version with updates of what happened after the book was initially released

Who was your favorite character and why?

Sikky Nixx, that guy is nuts.

What about the narrators’s performance did you like?

The fact that he was the author as well.

If you were to make a film of this book, what would the tag line be?

Story of a Shooting Star

Any additional comments?

It's the fact Nikki Sixx survived that makes the stories hysterical, amazing, and unbelievable. Had he not, this would have been a tragic tale of slow suicide. If you enjoy stories of redemption, it's hard to beat The Heroin Diaries.

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  • AnnieJuly
  • 31-10-2017

What can I say...

...but wonderful! I had already read the original but the audio brings those words to life when read by Nikki himself. Plenty of new material too. The epilogue was really moving on so many levels: his intelligence, his determination, his search to contribute and not least his rallying cry for the true rock star in an age of blah, blah, blah (and that’s the sober Nikki talking). I’d say this would appeal to those who maybe aren’t Sixx fans sufficiently to want to read the book too. The male voice actor who did the other male characters was great: his Tommy, Vince and Slash were uncannily good. His English accents, hmm, okay! The female was pretty awful: a strange, shrill, nasal delivery that barely changed person to person. The one thing that I didn’t like was her delivery.

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  • JD
  • 11-04-2019

Incredible Story with a Very Positive Message

Nikki Sixx tells a very honest and open story with many of his peers telling us how much of a difficult and spiteful person he used to be. The 10year anniversary edition adds a lot to the story on how Nikki has turned his life around even after Motley Crue finished.

The story is read incredibly well by Nikki and you can feel the emotion in his voice as he relives the Heroin Diaries.

Loved every second of this story!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 03-10-2019

utter tripe

this was one of the worst, trashiest pieces of self indulgent drivel I have had the misfortune to encounter. boring , trite bullcrap. I was hoping he would just die. I regretted buying it after a few minutes

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  • Mike.
  • 23-09-2019

A read in the life of one hell of a rockstar

I have read this book 5-6 times and now listened to it it's beautiful would highly recommend to anyone interested in rock music, or anyone who has ever suffered from any type of addiction.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 18-09-2019

Exceptional !!

Very inspirational and such a great listen. I highly recommend any addict or recovering addict to delve into the crazy world that was Nikki Sixx's life !!! A++++

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  • Kiera Waring
  • 10-04-2019

Superb 🤘🏻

Really harrowing stuff but it was a great listen, gave me a good few laugh out loud moments and gasps. The book speaks volumes of Nikki's strength and resilience to live through the horror, take full responsibility for his behaviour, then publish it for all to see and give other addicts hope. Great book, even if you're not a Crüe fan.

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  • Mr. Michael N. Parkinson
  • 20-03-2019

A roller coaster of fun and falls

A good listen, very honest and raw at times. Makes it hard to feel alone

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  • Jonnyboybegorah!
  • 10-03-2019

Cool.. Interesting and fairly well told<br />

I enjoyed it.. And it was pretty much what I thought it would be.. No surprises but a great blast from the past

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  • Matthew Bedford
  • 23-11-2018

Amazing!

Read his book over 10 years ago, I never read books but read this in 2 days. Love it and couldn’t wait for the audible version to come.

Has me crying laughing yet other times moving an emotional.

My favourite book of all time.

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  • Trixibelle
  • 22-10-2018

Raw, honest, compelling

Nikki Sixx is a personal hero of mine - he is not afraid to show his weaknesses and vulnerabilities, laying everything bare in this compelling, honest and raw account of his struggles with drug addiction. I bought the hard copy book when it first came out and found it so insightful, and it was just as good listening to it so many years later. Nikki narrates it very well, as does Ross Marquand; Sophie is annoying, but perhaps that is telling of the voices she reads as Vanity and Nikki's mom seem(ed) pretty annoying (and self-obsessed) too.

Despite this book portraying drug addiction in anything but the harsh light of reality, there is no denying that Nikki Sixx, drug addict or not, is one very cool guy. He has so much talent and seems to have so much personal charisma that even in his worst, drug-addled moments his rock star lifestyle can seem glamorous, desirable even. He has further had the advantage of being a MILLIONAIRE drug addict, and so has been afforded the luxury of second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth (+?!) chances of starting again, clearly NOT a luxury that every heroin-addicted individual will have. But what stops this from becoming anything to feel contemptuous of, is that Nikki has an abundance of self-awareness, lacking in so many others in his position. It is to his credit that he's opened up about his worst times in The Heroin Diaries, and in doing so has helped so many less fortunate than himself.

Highly recommended.