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The End of My Life Is Killing Me

The Unexpected Joys of a Cancer Slacker

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The End of My Life Is Killing Me

By: Annabelle Gurwitch
Narrated by: Andie MacDowell, Annabelle Gurwitch
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A book of small rescues against despair.

In this deftly comedic and deeply contemplative memoir, the New York Times bestselling author faces life’s biggest curveball only to find resilience in the most unlikely places.

After Annabelle Gurwitch received an out-of-the blue diagnosis of Stage 4 lung cancer, an existential dread set in. Precision medicine offered a temporary reprieve—but instead of turning into a cancer warrior, Annabelle declared herself a cancer slacker. Her motto: no runs, no ribbons, no religion.

Told with her signature wit, warmth, and gimlet eye, Gurwitch draws inspiration from Greek mythology and TV comedies, Kermit the Frog and Samuel Beckett. She accidentally acquires an angel, embraces being in it “just for the sex,” and finds herself on a European van tour selling merch for a heavy metal band.

In this hilariously and deeply affecting meditation on mortality, the actress and activist illuminates life with chronic disease, inequities in care, and celebrates tiny victories, the crusty ends of baguettes, the discreet pleasure of sucking at a hobby, and the unshakable bond of female friendship. She upends the notion of living each day as if it were your last, as she discovers you can carpe too much diem, embracing, instead, the extraordinariness of the ordinary.

©2026 Annabelle Gurwitch (P)2026 Zibby Publishing

Critic Reviews

“Annabelle Gurwitch's The End of My Life Is Killing Me has wit sharp enough to cut through sentimentality and honesty that refuses to look away. Part memoir, part meditation on the extraordinary hidden within the ordinary, part laugh-out-loud commentary on the absurd and irritating realities of life and death, it’s a reminder that even in our darkest hours, we can choose what to notice, what to celebrate, and how to live.”—Gretchen Rubin, author of The Four Tendencies

“Gurwitch at her most fearless—witty, skeptical, and wide awake to the absurdities of being alive. With her singular blend of humor and insight, here she juggles the comically tragic and the tragically comedic, writing with vulnerability and verve as if her life depends on it. And, it does.”—Lori Gottlieb, author of Maybe You Should Talk To Someone

“You will fall in love with Annabelle Gurwitch’s smart, affirming, funny, and wise approach to embracing life fully in The End of My Life is Killing Me. A delight to read that will also leave you deeply moved.”—Susan Orlean, author of The Library Book

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