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Pain Is a Portal to Beauty

Stunning Discoveries After Loss, Psychedelics, and Feeling It All

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Pain Is a Portal to Beauty

By: Alexis Leigh
Narrated by: Alexis Leigh
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What if being grateful isn’t enough?
What if I’m meant for so much more?

By all appearances, Alexis Leigh had everything—a top-tier education, a successful career, a lovely home, a beautiful family and community. But it all started to unravel in a single moment, when she was forced to acknowledge a quiet, scary truth: Just beneath the goodness of her life lay profound sadness and loneliness.

From that moment, Alexis knew she had to start unearthing the buried pain of her childhood. And she had to let go of the life she knew to do it.

In Pain Is a Portal to Beauty, Alexis shares the raw, deeply personal story of navigating her heartbreaking divorce, the unresolved grief of losing her mother, her use of psychedelics as a path to healing, and her quest to find new love.

As she began to embrace her pain, Alexis was stunned to discover miracle after miracle. Gifts she never knew she had. The freedom and power to follow her longings. Deep and rich intimacy. What she couldn’t have known at the start of her journey was that welcoming her pain—instead of running from it—would bring her to life.

©2025 Alexis Leigh (P)2025 Alexis Leigh
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"Pain Is a Portal to Beauty is an intimate and courageous memoir that challenges readers to reconsider their own relationship with suffering. Leigh’s prose is both lyrical and accessible, making complex emotional and spiritual concepts feel tangible. This book is not just about pain—it is about the alchemy of pain into beauty, the necessity of darkness in order to find light. For those on a journey of self-discovery, healing or spiritual awakening, this book serves as both a companion and an inspiration." -BookTrib.

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