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Love as Always, Mum xxx

Narrated by: Julia Barrie
Length: 10 hrs and 47 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars (6 ratings)
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Publisher's Summary

The true story of an abused childhood, of shocking brutality and life as the daughter of notorious serial killer and master manipulator Rose West.  

You're 21 years old. Police arrive on the doorstep of your house, 25 Cromwell Street, with a warrant to search the garden for the remains of your older sister you didn't know was dead. Bones are found, and they are from more than one body. And so the nightmare begins. You are the daughter of Fred and Rose West.  

'Mae, I mean this.... I'm not a good person, and I let all you children down....' (Rose West, HM Prison Durham)

It has taken over 20 years for Mae West to find the perspective and strength to tell her remarkable story: one of an abusive, violent childhood, of her serial killer parents and how she has rebuilt her life in the shadow of their terrible crimes.  

Through her own memories, research and the letters her mother wrote to her from prison, Mae shares her emotionally powerful account of her life as a West. From a toddler locked in the deathly basement to a teen fighting off the sexual advances of her father, Mae's story is one of survival. It also answers the questions: how do you come to terms with knowing your childhood bedroom was a graveyard? How do you accept the fact your parents sexually tortured, murdered and dismembered young women? How do you become a mother yourself when you're haunted by the knowledge that your own mother was a monster? Why were you spared, and how do you escape the nightmare? 

Read by Julia Barrie.

©2018 Neil McKay (P)2018 Orion Publishing Group

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Heartbreaking but beautifully read

Remarkable book, had to pause a few times to collect my thoughts, heartbreaking but beautiful, thoughts go out to you and your siblings mae xxx

14 of 14 people found this review helpful

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Amazing book

Best book I’ve listened to in a long, long time. As a fan of true crime I am always fascinated by what happens to the families of the criminals and victims and this has gone a long way to explain what goes on behind the scenes. I’m so proud of Mae for becoming a good mother and breaking the cycle of abuse, she told her story so well it left me shocked and with tears in my eyes.

11 of 11 people found this review helpful

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Wow!

What a hard, hard listen that was. Not for the writing or the narrating which were excellent but because of the details of some of the events that took place. Listening to what Mae and her siblings had to go through as children was so hard that I almost had to just stop. But by the end of the book you see that Mae rightly has a lot of positivity and confidence in her future.

Mae is reluctant to see herself as a victim of Fred & Rose West but that's precisely what she was. Just because she wasn't murdered, hacked to pieces and buried in the garden doesn't mean she was any less of a victim. It's obvious that the children only served to satisfy their parent's own selfish and depraved desires which makes the title 'Love as always' all the more ironic, intentionally or not I'm not sure.

What also strikes me is at no time do you get the impression that Mae is trying to make herself or anyone else look like any thing more or less than what they really are. She's brutally honest about her parents and how unimaginably despicable they were while at the same time explaining how it was so hard to come to terms with what they'd done because she of course saw other sides to them such as their sense of humour, her mum's doting affection towards the babies and most incredibly her dad's tendancy to warn Rose off when she was getting heavy handed with the children.

Despite what you say Mae, you are brave!

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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Compelling listern.

It was compelling listern. I felt for Mae and her siblings. Glad she found peace&love.

2 of 2 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars

A different view of these infamous crimes

I often wonder how the families of murderers lives their lives with the knowledge of what their loved one has done. I spotted this book as it was serialized in the Daily Mail but I didn't know whether the subject matter would be too dark. The narrator really brings the book too life. It's was a very thoughtful book. And I wish the surviving West children and the families of the victims well.

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

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Gripping

excellent account of a daughters struggle against the worst of childhoods. A sad but true story. But what an amazing woman Mia was

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

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Heartbreaking

couldn't stop listening to this story, although difficult to hear some of the events that occurred, I recommend this book.

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good and disturbing

a very interesting listen, at times harrowing and difficult to go on but I would recommend for any lovers of true crime! I listened in more or less one sitting!

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A horrible childhood

It is hard to imagine a childhood as terrible as thiis must have been for Mae, and the rest of the children
of Rose West, and her husband Fred. The depravity of them both, is beyond belief in this 21st century
to all the people like myself , who grew up in a decent loving family. My heart goes out to Mae,and her
siblings, especially the lovely Heather, and Charmaine, who were robbed of a chanoe to live, and put
their terrible experiences behind them. I sincerely hope that Mae, Stephen, Louise, Anne Marie , and indeed, all the siblings
are soon friendly with each other, and able to forget the abusive life they once suffeded. God Bless Them All !

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Meh!

Accent of the narrator drove me nuts. Just a daughter cashing in on a huge tradgedy in my opinion. I was hoping for a better insight or at least some semblance of a different perspective. Nothing to see here. Way better books out there on this particular set of crimes.

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  • Vicki
  • 08-09-2018

Heartbreaking but beautifully read

Remarkable book, had to pause a few times to collect my thoughts, heartbreaking but beautiful, thoughts go out to you and your siblings mae xxx

14 of 14 people found this review helpful

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  • Newmaks
  • 09-09-2018

Amazing book

Best book I’ve listened to in a long, long time. As a fan of true crime I am always fascinated by what happens to the families of the criminals and victims and this has gone a long way to explain what goes on behind the scenes. I’m so proud of Mae for becoming a good mother and breaking the cycle of abuse, she told her story so well it left me shocked and with tears in my eyes.

11 of 11 people found this review helpful

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  • Gary Mason
  • 04-10-2018

Wow!

What a hard, hard listen that was. Not for the writing or the narrating which were excellent but because of the details of some of the events that took place. Listening to what Mae and her siblings had to go through as children was so hard that I almost had to just stop. But by the end of the book you see that Mae rightly has a lot of positivity and confidence in her future.

Mae is reluctant to see herself as a victim of Fred & Rose West but that's precisely what she was. Just because she wasn't murdered, hacked to pieces and buried in the garden doesn't mean she was any less of a victim. It's obvious that the children only served to satisfy their parent's own selfish and depraved desires which makes the title 'Love as always' all the more ironic, intentionally or not I'm not sure.

What also strikes me is at no time do you get the impression that Mae is trying to make herself or anyone else look like any thing more or less than what they really are. She's brutally honest about her parents and how unimaginably despicable they were while at the same time explaining how it was so hard to come to terms with what they'd done because she of course saw other sides to them such as their sense of humour, her mum's doting affection towards the babies and most incredibly her dad's tendancy to warn Rose off when she was getting heavy handed with the children.

Despite what you say Mae, you are brave!

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 13-09-2018

Compelling listern.

It was compelling listern. I felt for Mae and her siblings. Glad she found peace&love.

2 of 2 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Mrs Le More
  • 08-10-2018

A different view of these infamous crimes

I often wonder how the families of murderers lives their lives with the knowledge of what their loved one has done. I spotted this book as it was serialized in the Daily Mail but I didn't know whether the subject matter would be too dark. The narrator really brings the book too life. It's was a very thoughtful book. And I wish the surviving West children and the families of the victims well.

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anne Cowman
  • 06-10-2018

Gripping

excellent account of a daughters struggle against the worst of childhoods. A sad but true story. But what an amazing woman Mia was

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
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  • Amazon Customer
  • 05-12-2018

Heartbreaking

couldn't stop listening to this story, although difficult to hear some of the events that occurred, I recommend this book.

  • Overall
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  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
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  • Abigail Crawley
  • 05-12-2018

good and disturbing

a very interesting listen, at times harrowing and difficult to go on but I would recommend for any lovers of true crime! I listened in more or less one sitting!

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Geoffrey Vizard
  • 03-12-2018

A horrible childhood

It is hard to imagine a childhood as terrible as thiis must have been for Mae, and the rest of the children
of Rose West, and her husband Fred. The depravity of them both, is beyond belief in this 21st century
to all the people like myself , who grew up in a decent loving family. My heart goes out to Mae,and her
siblings, especially the lovely Heather, and Charmaine, who were robbed of a chanoe to live, and put
their terrible experiences behind them. I sincerely hope that Mae, Stephen, Louise, Anne Marie , and indeed, all the siblings
are soon friendly with each other, and able to forget the abusive life they once suffeded. God Bless Them All !

  • Overall
    2 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    1 out of 5 stars
  • LadyInMauve
  • 27-11-2018

Meh!

Accent of the narrator drove me nuts. Just a daughter cashing in on a huge tradgedy in my opinion. I was hoping for a better insight or at least some semblance of a different perspective. Nothing to see here. Way better books out there on this particular set of crimes.

Sort by:
  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Vicki
  • 08-09-2018

Heartbreaking but beautifully read

Remarkable book, had to pause a few times to collect my thoughts, heartbreaking but beautiful, thoughts go out to you and your siblings mae xxx

14 of 14 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Newmaks
  • 09-09-2018

Amazing book

Best book I’ve listened to in a long, long time. As a fan of true crime I am always fascinated by what happens to the families of the criminals and victims and this has gone a long way to explain what goes on behind the scenes. I’m so proud of Mae for becoming a good mother and breaking the cycle of abuse, she told her story so well it left me shocked and with tears in my eyes.

11 of 11 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Gary Mason
  • 04-10-2018

Wow!

What a hard, hard listen that was. Not for the writing or the narrating which were excellent but because of the details of some of the events that took place. Listening to what Mae and her siblings had to go through as children was so hard that I almost had to just stop. But by the end of the book you see that Mae rightly has a lot of positivity and confidence in her future.

Mae is reluctant to see herself as a victim of Fred & Rose West but that's precisely what she was. Just because she wasn't murdered, hacked to pieces and buried in the garden doesn't mean she was any less of a victim. It's obvious that the children only served to satisfy their parent's own selfish and depraved desires which makes the title 'Love as always' all the more ironic, intentionally or not I'm not sure.

What also strikes me is at no time do you get the impression that Mae is trying to make herself or anyone else look like any thing more or less than what they really are. She's brutally honest about her parents and how unimaginably despicable they were while at the same time explaining how it was so hard to come to terms with what they'd done because she of course saw other sides to them such as their sense of humour, her mum's doting affection towards the babies and most incredibly her dad's tendancy to warn Rose off when she was getting heavy handed with the children.

Despite what you say Mae, you are brave!

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Amazon Customer
  • 13-09-2018

Compelling listern.

It was compelling listern. I felt for Mae and her siblings. Glad she found peace&love.

2 of 2 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Mrs Le More
  • 08-10-2018

A different view of these infamous crimes

I often wonder how the families of murderers lives their lives with the knowledge of what their loved one has done. I spotted this book as it was serialized in the Daily Mail but I didn't know whether the subject matter would be too dark. The narrator really brings the book too life. It's was a very thoughtful book. And I wish the surviving West children and the families of the victims well.

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Anne Cowman
  • 06-10-2018

Gripping

excellent account of a daughters struggle against the worst of childhoods. A sad but true story. But what an amazing woman Mia was

1 of 1 people found this review helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Amazon Customer
  • 05-12-2018

Heartbreaking

couldn't stop listening to this story, although difficult to hear some of the events that occurred, I recommend this book.

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Abigail Crawley
  • 05-12-2018

good and disturbing

a very interesting listen, at times harrowing and difficult to go on but I would recommend for any lovers of true crime! I listened in more or less one sitting!

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Geoffrey Vizard
  • 03-12-2018

A horrible childhood

It is hard to imagine a childhood as terrible as thiis must have been for Mae, and the rest of the children
of Rose West, and her husband Fred. The depravity of them both, is beyond belief in this 21st century
to all the people like myself , who grew up in a decent loving family. My heart goes out to Mae,and her
siblings, especially the lovely Heather, and Charmaine, who were robbed of a chanoe to live, and put
their terrible experiences behind them. I sincerely hope that Mae, Stephen, Louise, Anne Marie , and indeed, all the siblings
are soon friendly with each other, and able to forget the abusive life they once suffeded. God Bless Them All !

  • Overall
    2 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    1 out of 5 stars
  • LadyInMauve
  • 27-11-2018

Meh!

Accent of the narrator drove me nuts. Just a daughter cashing in on a huge tradgedy in my opinion. I was hoping for a better insight or at least some semblance of a different perspective. Nothing to see here. Way better books out there on this particular set of crimes.