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Love as Always, Mum xxx

Narrated by: Julia Barrie
Length: 10 hrs and 47 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars (39 ratings)

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The true story of an abused childhood, of shocking brutality and life as the daughter of notorious serial killer and master manipulator Rose West.  

You're 21 years old. Police arrive on the doorstep of your house, 25 Cromwell Street, with a warrant to search the garden for the remains of your older sister you didn't know was dead. Bones are found, and they are from more than one body. And so the nightmare begins. You are the daughter of Fred and Rose West.  

'Mae, I mean this.... I'm not a good person, and I let all you children down....' (Rose West, HM Prison Durham)

It has taken over 20 years for Mae West to find the perspective and strength to tell her remarkable story: one of an abusive, violent childhood, of her serial killer parents and how she has rebuilt her life in the shadow of their terrible crimes.  

Through her own memories, research and the letters her mother wrote to her from prison, Mae shares her emotionally powerful account of her life as a West. From a toddler locked in the deathly basement to a teen fighting off the sexual advances of her father, Mae's story is one of survival. It also answers the questions: how do you come to terms with knowing your childhood bedroom was a graveyard? How do you accept the fact your parents sexually tortured, murdered and dismembered young women? How do you become a mother yourself when you're haunted by the knowledge that your own mother was a monster? Why were you spared, and how do you escape the nightmare? 

Read by Julia Barrie.

©2018 Neil McKay (P)2018 Orion Publishing Group

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All The Stars !!

As an avid reader of true crime books I had read a lot about Fred and Rose West. However with all of those books I had never considered their surviving children. This feels like such a raw, honest and real account of day to day life if 25 Cromwell Street. I had such sympathy for Mae but also admired her strength. I absolutely understand her desire to believe in her mother's innocence and to stand by her for as long as she did. Who could believe that their parent was capable of such things. I also appreciated how she didn't try to sensationalise anything in her story telling. I now believe that Fred and Rose had many more victims that may not have lost their life but, for a very long time, had lost their ability to live it. Good on you Mae for your strength to tell your story and to make a healthy and happy life out of what you were left with.

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Accent annoying

I found this very hard to listen to due to the sound of the narrator and the accent.

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Not the Mae West I expected - but a must to read

I’m quite shocked to think that in the 1990 to 2000 decade there was no victim support for the children of serial killers/abusers, that those kids had to seek their own solace and be self psychologists. What a horrific story and how amazing the children have all coped in their lives. I wish them all happiness and good fortune as they have shouldered way more than a fair share of perversion. A great reader and amazing story, that kept me awake some nights.

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A riveting, thought compelling story.

I just want to give Mae West a hug. thank you for sharing your story

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Meh..

Where to begin...? Mae and her siblings obviously lived lives that are hard to imagine...this book doesnt really help that. Theres no real insight, and I felt like Mae spends most of the time apologising for things she had no control over. The narrator doesnt help at all with her slow childlike (almost imbecilic) reading. I only made it through to the end of the book out of curiosity. If you're interested in Mae's story I would recommend going old school, and reading the book rather than listening to it.

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  • Katie A
  • 18-10-2018

Different point of view

This book was written by the oldest surviving daughter of Fred and Rosemary West, notorious serial killers from Gloucester, England. She offers a complex and challenging perspective on life with her parents, the abuse she suffered, and the crimes which Fred and Rose committed. Mae is very frank throughout the book about what was happening and what her feelings were and still are. She never makes excuses for either parent. She discusses in detail why she believed, for years, that her mother was innocent and why and how she came to realize Rose's parts in the grusom torture and murders on Cromwell Street. An excellent read for lovers of true crime or those interested in knowing more about Fred and Rose. The narrator was great and really captured Mae's voice.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 31-10-2018

Amazing

The narrator was perfect. It was fascinating to hear the daughter's perspective. I will probably listen to this again.

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  • Laura A
  • 17-10-2018

INTENSE

Great audiobook. Very startling during the first half, but then you get more into Mae’s personal struggles and experiences post the horrific findings. It is very explicit, and makes you very uncomfortable but at the same time you feel like you need to hear the reality of the outside world. Outside of your bubble. Wish Mae and her family the best today and always. Thanks for sharing your story.

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  • Emily Perkins
  • 10-10-2018

Graphic, but great

VERY detailed and graphic depiction of events which made it a difficult listen. However, the story was told very well and thoroughly.

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  • Audrey J T
  • 05-10-2018

Whoa.

It's pretty horrible to admit that one of the first things I thought before reading this book was what kind of people could these children have possibly become, being products of both the nature and nurture of Fred and Rose West? Mae West answered that question for me with such self-awareness and grace, a testament to the resiliency of the human spirit and the ability of very victimized people to embody tremendous beauty. Mae's account makes no excuses whatsoever for the actions of her parents, and she dives into the grittiest material, bravely facing all of it: the trajectory of her parents' lives and their truly appalling actions, her own relationship with her parents, her siblings, her daughter, herself. West is remarkably reflective. If you like true crime stories, you will enjoy this, but the book embodies much more than your typical crime ctory ever could. I read a lot of books and don't remember most of them, but I think I will always remember this book, and that is really saying something. Just...WHOA.

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  • Staber
  • 20-11-2018

Top 5 books

This book was an amazing read from start to finish. I didn’t want to put down. Although the subject was hard to hear the ending was so uplifting! Highly recommend!!!!

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  • Sherri Smith
  • 16-08-2019

Excellent !!!!

This was a heart breaking and heart swelling story all in one. Mae is such a strong woman. She told her story in such a classy way. I wish her all the best that life has to offer.

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  • Sunshine
  • 21-05-2019

This book was an eye opener .

This book, was one of those that I wouldn't put down. I had to find out what happened next and next and next. It talked about the world of a child thats has abusive parents, yet she still manages to love them, is complicated.

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  • Katie Lind
  • 18-06-2020

a really good read

a really great book to listen to. It was a really good story, and read really well.

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  • RRobinR
  • 17-05-2020

heartbreaking honest

This book only reminds me that human beings are seriously flawed and how unfortunate that that sometimes hurts othes.