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Love as Always, Mum xxx

Narrated by: Julia Barrie
Length: 10 hrs and 47 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars (14 ratings)
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Publisher's Summary

The true story of an abused childhood, of shocking brutality and life as the daughter of notorious serial killer and master manipulator Rose West.  

You're 21 years old. Police arrive on the doorstep of your house, 25 Cromwell Street, with a warrant to search the garden for the remains of your older sister you didn't know was dead. Bones are found, and they are from more than one body. And so the nightmare begins. You are the daughter of Fred and Rose West.  

'Mae, I mean this.... I'm not a good person, and I let all you children down....' (Rose West, HM Prison Durham)

It has taken over 20 years for Mae West to find the perspective and strength to tell her remarkable story: one of an abusive, violent childhood, of her serial killer parents and how she has rebuilt her life in the shadow of their terrible crimes.  

Through her own memories, research and the letters her mother wrote to her from prison, Mae shares her emotionally powerful account of her life as a West. From a toddler locked in the deathly basement to a teen fighting off the sexual advances of her father, Mae's story is one of survival. It also answers the questions: how do you come to terms with knowing your childhood bedroom was a graveyard? How do you accept the fact your parents sexually tortured, murdered and dismembered young women? How do you become a mother yourself when you're haunted by the knowledge that your own mother was a monster? Why were you spared, and how do you escape the nightmare? 

Read by Julia Barrie.

©2018 Neil McKay (P)2018 Orion Publishing Group

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A riveting, thought compelling story.

I just want to give Mae West a hug. thank you for sharing your story

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Meh..

Where to begin...?
Mae and her siblings obviously lived lives that are hard to imagine...this book doesnt really help that. Theres no real insight, and I felt like Mae spends most of the time apologising for things she had no control over.
The narrator doesnt help at all with her slow childlike (almost imbecilic) reading. I only made it through to the end of the book out of curiosity. If you're interested in Mae's story I would recommend going old school, and reading the book rather than listening to it.

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  • Katie A
  • 18-10-2018

Different point of view

This book was written by the oldest surviving daughter of Fred and Rosemary West, notorious serial killers from Gloucester, England. She offers a complex and challenging perspective on life with her parents, the abuse she suffered, and the crimes which Fred and Rose committed. Mae is very frank throughout the book about what was happening and what her feelings were and still are. She never makes excuses for either parent. She discusses in detail why she believed, for years, that her mother was innocent and why and how she came to realize Rose's parts in the grusom torture and murders on Cromwell Street. An excellent read for lovers of true crime or those interested in knowing more about Fred and Rose. The narrator was great and really captured Mae's voice.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 31-10-2018

Amazing

The narrator was perfect. It was fascinating to hear the daughter's perspective. I will probably listen to this again.

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  • Laura A
  • 17-10-2018

INTENSE

Great audiobook. Very startling during the first half, but then you get more into Mae’s personal struggles and experiences post the horrific findings. It is very explicit, and makes you very uncomfortable but at the same time you feel like you need to hear the reality of the outside world. Outside of your bubble. Wish Mae and her family the best today and always. Thanks for sharing your story.

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  • Emily Perkins
  • 10-10-2018

Graphic, but great

VERY detailed and graphic depiction of events which made it a difficult listen.
However, the story was told very well and thoroughly.

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  • Audrey J T
  • 05-10-2018

Whoa.

It's pretty horrible to admit that one of the first things I thought before reading this book was what kind of people could these children have possibly become, being products of both the nature and nurture of Fred and Rose West? Mae West answered that question for me with such self-awareness and grace, a testament to the resiliency of the human spirit and the ability of very victimized people to embody tremendous beauty. Mae's account makes no excuses whatsoever for the actions of her parents, and she dives into the grittiest material, bravely facing all of it: the trajectory of her parents' lives and their truly appalling actions, her own relationship with her parents, her siblings, her daughter, herself. West is remarkably reflective. If you like true crime stories, you will enjoy this, but the book embodies much more than your typical crime ctory ever could. I read a lot of books and don't remember most of them, but I think I will always remember this book, and that is really saying something. Just...WHOA.

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  • Staber
  • 20-11-2018

Top 5 books

This book was an amazing read from start to finish. I didn’t want to put down.
Although the subject was hard to hear the ending was so uplifting!
Highly recommend!!!!

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  • Vicki
  • 08-09-2018

Heartbreaking but beautifully read

Remarkable book, had to pause a few times to collect my thoughts, heartbreaking but beautiful, thoughts go out to you and your siblings mae xxx

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  • Newmaks
  • 09-09-2018

Amazing book

Best book I’ve listened to in a long, long time. As a fan of true crime I am always fascinated by what happens to the families of the criminals and victims and this has gone a long way to explain what goes on behind the scenes. I’m so proud of Mae for becoming a good mother and breaking the cycle of abuse, she told her story so well it left me shocked and with tears in my eyes.

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  • Gary Mason
  • 04-10-2018

Wow!

What a hard, hard listen that was. Not for the writing or the narrating which were excellent but because of the details of some of the events that took place. Listening to what Mae and her siblings had to go through as children was so hard that I almost had to just stop. But by the end of the book you see that Mae rightly has a lot of positivity and confidence in her future.

Mae is reluctant to see herself as a victim of Fred & Rose West but that's precisely what she was. Just because she wasn't murdered, hacked to pieces and buried in the garden doesn't mean she was any less of a victim. It's obvious that the children only served to satisfy their parent's own selfish and depraved desires which makes the title 'Love as always' all the more ironic, intentionally or not I'm not sure.

What also strikes me is at no time do you get the impression that Mae is trying to make herself or anyone else look like any thing more or less than what they really are. She's brutally honest about her parents and how unimaginably despicable they were while at the same time explaining how it was so hard to come to terms with what they'd done because she of course saw other sides to them such as their sense of humour, her mum's doting affection towards the babies and most incredibly her dad's tendancy to warn Rose off when she was getting heavy handed with the children.

Despite what you say Mae, you are brave!

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 13-09-2018

Compelling listern.

It was compelling listern. I felt for Mae and her siblings. Glad she found peace&love.

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  • Mrs Le More
  • 08-10-2018

A different view of these infamous crimes

I often wonder how the families of murderers lives their lives with the knowledge of what their loved one has done. I spotted this book as it was serialized in the Daily Mail but I didn't know whether the subject matter would be too dark. The narrator really brings the book too life. It's was a very thoughtful book. And I wish the surviving West children and the families of the victims well.

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  • Anne Cowman
  • 06-10-2018

Gripping

excellent account of a daughters struggle against the worst of childhoods. A sad but true story. But what an amazing woman Mia was

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  • Anonymous User
  • 18-03-2019

Sending Love

Although harrowing at times, I enjoyed Maes personal account, being able to understand it from the other side. I wanted to reach out to her.. I send her my love... Narration was excellent

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  • JULESK
  • 14-03-2019

Enlightening.

I wanted to find out what it was really like as a child growing up in that house, Mae I feel opened up and told all she knew and had to go through. I cant imagine the suffering of all the children and feel it's such a shame that some people think these children were aware of everything the parents did including the murders, which at the time they did not. They were also victims, You cant blame children for parents crimes. I am glad Mae is getting on with her life and I wish her all the very best she should be proud of herself. The narrator was brilliant loved listening, Thank you.

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  • janien
  • 09-03-2019

Heart wrenching but brilliant

Beautifully written and narrated, yet brutal and shockingly detailed about the abuse inflicted on the West children by their infamous parents.

One of those reads you won’t forget in a hurry; I think when I hear the names Rosemarie and Fred West I will now automatically think of their daughter, Mae who gets a huge virtual hug from me for her bravery in writing this.

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  • Stephanie Greenwood
  • 28-02-2019

Really good

Well done Mae. I’m in awe of you.

Really enjoyed listening to this book and didn’t want it to end.