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I'll Be Gone in the Dark

One Woman's Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer
Length: 9 hrs and 44 mins
4.5 out of 5 stars (36 ratings)
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Publisher's Summary

Short-listed for the Gordon Burn Prize 2018 

A masterful true crime account of the Golden State Killer - the elusive serial rapist turned murderer who terrorised California for over a decade - from Michelle McNamara, the gifted journalist who died tragically while investigating the case. 

'You'll be silent forever, and I'll be gone in the dark.'

For more than 10 years, a mysterious and violent predator committed 50 sexual assaults in Northern California before moving south, where he perpetrated 10 sadistic murders. Then he disappeared, eluding capture by multiple police forces and some of the best detectives in the area. 

Three decades later, Michelle McNamara, a true crime journalist who created the popular website True Crime Diary, was determined to find the violent psychopath she called the Golden State Killer. Michelle pored over police reports, interviewed victims, and embedded herself in the online communities that were as obsessed with the case as she was. 

I'll Be Gone in the Dark - the masterpiece McNamara was writing at the time of her sudden death - offers an atmospheric snapshot of a moment in American history and a chilling account of a criminal mastermind and the wreckage he left behind. It is also a portrait of a woman's obsession and her unflagging pursuit of the truth. 

Framed by an introduction by Gillian Flynn and an afterword by her husband, Patton Oswalt, the book was completed by Michelle's lead researcher and a close colleague. Utterly original and compelling, it is destined to become a true crime classic - and may at last unmask the Golden State Killer.

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©2018 Michelle McNamara (P)2018 Audible, Ltd

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I’ll be gone in the dark

A bittersweet, beautifully written detective book. Michelle McNamara’s words run more like prose through your brain. An unforgettable turn of phrase here, a “spot-on”, perfect description there… Makes her work unique.
I’ve followed this case for years- fascinated by a monster that nobody could catch.
True Crime Podcasts, too numerous to count, have covered this case, in varying degrees of depth for years. I was hooked!
I was excited to buy the hard copy of “I’ll be gone in the dark”, when it first came out, in January 2018, and waited patiently for Audible Australia to release the audiobook here, many months later.
The absolute travesty of Michelle’s unexpected death, before she finished her story was made a little more sadder by knowing that, just weeks after her book was published, her Golden State Killer, was unmasked, through one of her suggested techniques, searching a DNA databank (i.e. GED Match), as Joseph James DeAngelo.
Know that your unbelievably hard work paid off. You got him, Michelle!

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Amazing

Just listen to this, it’s captivating, I didn’t want it to finish - don’t bother with Evil has a Name.

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  • Amazon Customer petamd
  • 25-11-2018

Brilliant

I was expecting a good read but this surpassed my expectations the wor!d of true crime has lost a true master of the genre with Michelle McNamara her family can be proud of this work

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  • Simon
  • 26-11-2018

Dark, Compelling True Crime, But Material Missing!

This is a quite astonishing story, in fact maybe it's two stories. Michelle McNamara who sadly passed before the book could be finished and before the killer could be brought to justice lived an incredible obsession every day of her life. She did manage to write large parts of this story which was completed by her lead researcher and a close colleague. It covers her obsession which gets more understandable with every passing chapter. The Golden State Killer is an incredible story of how one single man was able to commit the most heinous of crimes over many years time after time while still evading capture. It almost beggars belief how he got away with it and baffled law enforcement agencies over decades.

The book tells that story and with Michelle's amazing depth of research it does it in detail. The lives that were destroyed: victims, family members, even children. It talks about how communities lived in fear of this man and how even the investigators that tried so hard but in vain to identify and capture him were left part-broken by their failures and constant disappointments. It talks about the online community of amateur sleuths of which Michelle was a part that kept the case alive dedicating their time to trying to solve the mystery and identify this seemingly phantom killer. Lastly it of course talks about the effect on Michelle's life and her relationships making the afterword by her husband incredibly poignant.

Tragically of course Michelle never got to see the moment she yearned for, the man finally caught and unmasked as she passed away in 2016 but this is a fine record as her legacy. It has to be said though that it's not the easiest of listens. At times it is a sad litany of evil crime after evil crime and the book goes into enough detail to make it problematic for anyone on the squeamish side. Also, unfortunately Audible have not included the pdf attachment that is supposed to come with the book which sounds like it would have been particularly useful towards the end as mapping techniques were discussed so while this is a five star book I've given four as a result.

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  • Frank Cummins
  • 04-12-2018

What an amazing book!!

Michelle was not a detective but she was far more than an armchair sleuth. Really sad she died before the East Area Rapist was caught but one thing is certain, she knew he would be caught and virtually predicted it would be science that would get him. Well narrated by someone who was a fan of Michelle’s. Very happy I bought this book. It will be one I will return to.

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  • janien
  • 16-12-2018

Fascinating!

How one woman became obsessed with finding the elusive Golden State Killer; prolific serial rapist and murderer. Fascinating; a fantastic listen. Brilliant presentation.

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  • Emma C Simms
  • 10-12-2018

If you love true crime this is the book for you!

Michelle did such a great job of lying out the information of each case and ties it all together in such a respectful and thorough way. I’m so sorry she didn’t get to see his capture but whole heartily believe she played a roll into him being caught.
Absolutely loved this book, so pleased it was shared to uk audible.

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  • mollyeyre
  • 27-11-2018

Not about the crime - more about the obsession

I missed the crucial words in the book description - 'and one that MAY YET lead to the killer.' So in fact I spent nearly 10 hours waiting and waiting to find a conclusion - and of course - there wasn't one. I had to keep re-running chapters as I found the writing and narration soporific, and kept drifting off in mind or body. The minutiae of the data given was too complex to absorb and link.

I feel very disappointed and wish that I hadn't spent this credit, I had it on my wish list and pounced as soon as it became available, what a waste!

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW - DON'T READ ON!

Having read reviews on Amazon, I understand that this killer has now been caught because of 'discarded' DNA: There are bits of information on Youtube. His name is Joseph James Deangelo

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