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I'll Be Gone in the Dark

One Woman's Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer
Length: 9 hrs and 44 mins
Categories: Non-fiction, True Crime
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Short-listed for the Gordon Burn Prize 2018 

A masterful true crime account of the Golden State Killer - the elusive serial rapist turned murderer who terrorised California for over a decade - from Michelle McNamara, the gifted journalist who died tragically while investigating the case. 

'You'll be silent forever, and I'll be gone in the dark.'

For more than 10 years, a mysterious and violent predator committed 50 sexual assaults in Northern California before moving south, where he perpetrated 10 sadistic murders. Then he disappeared, eluding capture by multiple police forces and some of the best detectives in the area. 

Three decades later, Michelle McNamara, a true crime journalist who created the popular website True Crime Diary, was determined to find the violent psychopath she called the Golden State Killer. Michelle pored over police reports, interviewed victims, and embedded herself in the online communities that were as obsessed with the case as she was. 

I'll Be Gone in the Dark - the masterpiece McNamara was writing at the time of her sudden death - offers an atmospheric snapshot of a moment in American history and a chilling account of a criminal mastermind and the wreckage he left behind. It is also a portrait of a woman's obsession and her unflagging pursuit of the truth. 

Framed by an introduction by Gillian Flynn and an afterword by her husband, Patton Oswalt, the book was completed by Michelle's lead researcher and a close colleague. Utterly original and compelling, it is destined to become a true crime classic - and may at last unmask the Golden State Killer.

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©2018 Michelle McNamara (P)2018 Audible, Ltd

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I’ll be gone in the dark

A bittersweet, beautifully written detective book. Michelle McNamara’s words run more like prose through your brain. An unforgettable turn of phrase here, a “spot-on”, perfect description there… Makes her work unique.
I’ve followed this case for years- fascinated by a monster that nobody could catch.
True Crime Podcasts, too numerous to count, have covered this case, in varying degrees of depth for years. I was hooked!
I was excited to buy the hard copy of “I’ll be gone in the dark”, when it first came out, in January 2018, and waited patiently for Audible Australia to release the audiobook here, many months later.
The absolute travesty of Michelle’s unexpected death, before she finished her story was made a little more sadder by knowing that, just weeks after her book was published, her Golden State Killer, was unmasked, through one of her suggested techniques, searching a DNA databank (i.e. GED Match), as Joseph James DeAngelo.
Know that your unbelievably hard work paid off. You got him, Michelle!

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  • 19-01-2019

Was ok - Too much autobiography - Not enough case

I bought this expecting a true crime narrative - NOT the autobiography of a self absorbed journalist - I'm sorry - I know she's passed on - but hey - I really don't care that the author's high school crush reminded her of her Curious George doll way back when
The book is long winded - and appears to focus far too much on the author - and nowhere near enough on the case - if you want a fantastic true crime book - take a look at the zodiac account by robert graysmith - the guy manages to get through whole paragraphs - whole chapters! - without using the pronoun "I" !!!!
Yeah - lost interest in this book - didn't finish it - narrator was good...

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Amazing

Just listen to this, it’s captivating, I didn’t want it to finish - don’t bother with Evil has a Name.

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Fascinating

How this killer and rapist has remained so elusive is intriguing. A good listen on a long drive.

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thrilling

A journey the writer share's, thrilling and detailed. Igot insight of the difficulty of this case . brilliant


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Intriguing Insight Into One Woman’s Search For The Golden State Killer

Michelle McNamara’s passion and longing to find truth is inspiring. From her own investigation to collating the evidence of others has given great insight into not only her own views but the views of many others. I only wish she had lived to see him caught.

The PDF attachment is a handy visual tool to accompany the audio book especially if you are looking for that deeper connection to then thoughts of people.

For any lover of True Crime, I highly recommend.

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Even better than the hype

This could only be better if Michelle had had a chance to finish this herself.
I wish you could access the extra materials from the App but that is no flaw of the book!

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Phenomenal

Don't google whether or not they found him until you've finished the book, it'll kind of ruin it trust me.

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Well written.<br />

A well written and well narrated book.
It was intriguing right up to the end.

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you wont regret this purchase

Amazingly written and the performance by Gillian Flynn is captivating. Emotional and fascinating. Buy it.

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  • Nicola Kritzinger
  • 11-01-2019

Incredible Tenacity

Michelle McNamara is an inspiration to anyone who wishes to write. Her investigation was incredible. It’s thanks to people like Michelle that people can hopefully find closure. It’s so sad to think she didn’t live to see her work published or its major impact. Well worth a read or a listen. Performance is A+.

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  • Aamir Butt
  • 25-02-2019

Needs an update

This book needs an update now that a lot has changed regarding pursuit of Golden state killer. Brilliant investigative book nonetheless.

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  • Earbud
  • 12-09-2019

well written and interesting

I can understand why this book was rated so highly by readers and critics. McNamara sure could write: this is true crime on another level. I would say that it can be compared with Capote's In cold blood. It is about so much more than just trying to 'catch' the perpetrator of serial rapes and killings in California over a long period of time. It explores and reveals much about a place and time in America, and the nature of killers and those who are obsessed with them. I savoured her use of language and her ability to conjure up a constant tense, vaguely sinister atmosphere, which kept me intrigued, in spite of the fact that it had been made clear from the outset that the mystery was going to remain unsolved.
I found Gabra Zackman's narration absolutely spot on. She really gets the tone of the book and effectively conveys the menace of the killer as he escalates, and the growing obsession/hint of desperation on the part of the author, as she tries to pull together a constantly unravelling tapestry of clues. Recommended for those who like nuanced non fiction that makes one think.

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  • Simon
  • 26-11-2018

Dark, Compelling True Crime, But Material Missing!

This is a quite astonishing story, in fact maybe it's two stories. Michelle McNamara who sadly passed before the book could be finished and before the killer could be brought to justice lived an incredible obsession every day of her life. She did manage to write large parts of this story which was completed by her lead researcher and a close colleague. It covers her obsession which gets more understandable with every passing chapter. The Golden State Killer is an incredible story of how one single man was able to commit the most heinous of crimes over many years time after time while still evading capture. It almost beggars belief how he got away with it and baffled law enforcement agencies over decades.

The book tells that story and with Michelle's amazing depth of research it does it in detail. The lives that were destroyed: victims, family members, even children. It talks about how communities lived in fear of this man and how even the investigators that tried so hard but in vain to identify and capture him were left part-broken by their failures and constant disappointments. It talks about the online community of amateur sleuths of which Michelle was a part that kept the case alive dedicating their time to trying to solve the mystery and identify this seemingly phantom killer. Lastly it of course talks about the effect on Michelle's life and her relationships making the afterword by her husband incredibly poignant.

Tragically of course Michelle never got to see the moment she yearned for, the man finally caught and unmasked as she passed away in 2016 but this is a fine record as her legacy. It has to be said though that it's not the easiest of listens. At times it is a sad litany of evil crime after evil crime and the book goes into enough detail to make it problematic for anyone on the squeamish side. Also, unfortunately Audible have not included the pdf attachment that is supposed to come with the book which sounds like it would have been particularly useful towards the end as mapping techniques were discussed so while this is a five star book I've given four as a result.

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  • Abi Ziviani
  • 22-11-2019

Good summary of GSK

I enjoyed this audiobook. I have followed the GSK for sometime now and this was a good summary. Probably a better listen for those that already have a little prior knowledge of these events.

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  • Amazon Customer petamd
  • 25-11-2018

Brilliant

I was expecting a good read but this surpassed my expectations the wor!d of true crime has lost a true master of the genre with Michelle McNamara her family can be proud of this work

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  • I ain't givin' you no name
  • 10-09-2019

gripping true crime amateur sleuthing

frustrating that there is no real conclusion here, would be nice to have another post script added letting us know what has happened in the case since original publication.

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  • Colleen
  • 07-09-2019

Brilliant

Couldn’t stop listening, especially knowing the alleged GSK is finally in metal bracelets, hearing the clang of metal on metal, signalling his end.

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  • R. Bixter
  • 21-08-2019

Fascinating book

Listening to the audiobook - fantastic listen. Just be warned that this audiobook (at least as of August 2019) does not include the latest update to the book.

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  • stacy dudley
  • 07-08-2019

Does not disappoint

Loved it! easy to follow and well read.
Even though I already knew a lot about the case there was so much more that I didn't.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 26-06-2019

Gripping

Wow. What an amazing book I was totally hooked. Couldn’t wait to be able to put my earphones back in to listen to some more. Incredibly well written and read.

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  • Amy
  • 15-06-2019

Enthralled till the end.

Enjoyed every minute. The narrators soft seductive voice treads gently on harsh words carrying this book along beautifully. Fantastic writing.

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  • Elinor Dashwood
  • 07-12-2019

An hodgepodge of bits and pieces

The thing to know is that the author died before writing her book. So this "book" is actually a confused and confusing jumble of source documents: some writing by the author that presumably was intended to be part of her book one day, transcripts of interviews, articles, excerpts of "early drafts of articles," bits of memoir about her own life that have nothing to do with the killer/murders, a chapter from her editors and another by her husband lauding her, essays pondering abstract issues, etc.

There's no organizing principle - it's not collated, for example, chronologically. So this chapter's interview might overlap the one last chapter and then the next magazine article goes all the way back to the beginning. This make for lots of repetition and it's kind of bewildering to listen to. Parts are written in first person, and then it jumps to third person. One section will be written as straight true crime and then there are fictionalized sections of how conversations might have gone. THere's no one person's journey to get invested in as a reader.

What is most certainly isn't is "one woman's obsessive search for the golden state killer" - that would have been a book I'd have liked to have read, because McNamara can write well.