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If I Let You Go

By: Charlotte Levin
Narrated by: Maxine Peake
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Publisher's Summary

A Richard and Judy Book Club pick, If I Let You Go is a darkly comic tale of searing loss, coercive control and the consequences of taking the wrong path.

Every morning, Janet Brown goes to work cleaning offices. It calms her – cleanliness, neatness. All the things she’s unable to do with her soul can be achieved with a damp cloth and a splash of bleach. However the guilt she still carries, about a devastating loss that happened eleven years ago, cannot be erased.

When Janet finds herself involved in a train crash, she recognizes her chance to do what she couldn’t all those years ago. And she makes a decision. As news spreads of Janet’s actions, her story inspires everyone around her and, for the first time, her life has purpose. Her future is filled with hope.

But Janet's story isn't quite what it seems. And, as events spiral out of control, she soon discovers that coming clean isn't an option. Because if Janet washes away the lies, what long-buried truths will she finally have to face?

If I Let You Go by Charlotte Levin is a deeply moving and compelling portrayal of a woman coming to terms with loss.

©2023 Charlotte Levin (P)2023 Macmillan Publishers International Limited

Critic Reviews

"Simultaneously tragic and uplifting. And I have to say at times funny. Charlotte Levin is SUCH a clever writer... A magnificent read." (Ruth Jones, author of Love Untold)

"A thoughtful, beautifully written book about grief, and ordinary people being thrown into extraordinary circumstances. Unusual and compelling, with just a touch of humour. Loved it." (Catherine Cooper author of The Chalet and The Cruise)

"Impossible to put down, this is a darkly brilliant novel that balances the heartbreak with the humour." (Louise Hare, bestselling author of This Lovely City)

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