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Publisher's Summary

A chilling, eye-opening story of marriage and attempted murder, revealing the truth about a case that made headlines around the world.

On Easter Sunday 2015, experienced skydiver Victoria Cilliers undertook a parachute jump, a gift from her husband, British Army Sergeant Emile Cilliers. Her parachutes failed to open, and she plummeted 4,000 feet to the ground, sustaining life-threatening injuries. Miraculously, she survived.  

Then the police arrived at her door.  

Someone had tampered with her parachute, and they suspected Emile.

In I Survived, Victoria describes how she fell for Emile and how the charming man she thought she knew gradually revealed a darker side, chipping away at her self-worth until she found it impossible to sift truth from lies.  

Can she really believe that her husband - the father of their two young children - tried to kill her? 

As more shocking revelations come to light and she has to face his trial and relentless media scrutiny, she struggles to come to terms with the past.  

Even a guilty verdict does not free her because Emile is not ready to let her go.

Powerful and honest, I Survived is the story of a woman who was put through hell and yet found the strength to forge a new life for herself and her children.

©2020 Victoria Cilliers (P)2020 Macmillan Publishers International Ltd

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Excellent listen

loved it...
thought it was well read, narration was fantastic and on point. definitely recommend

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Wonderfully written and honest

Congratulations on writing a wonderful book, about a very difficult part of your life. I could not stop listening to it. Very well written and read. Thanks for your honestly (which I’m quite sure would have been extremely difficult to write for all to see).

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My heart goes out to Victoria

Victoria captures the essence of any woman who has been through the psychological abuse a narcissist husband. When you’ve been in a relationship that makes you feel trapped, and you don’t realise how naive you are about the abuse you are receiving, a lot of what Victoria went through is similar to the humiliation many go through. She brings out the innocence of it all, the innocence of yearning for a happy family life, and doing what you can to keep it going. Yet deep down, it’s all so desperately disturbing. I’m glad she survived to tell her tale, some aren’t that lucky.

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Fantastic

Fantastic story. So sorry that it happened to you. You are an amazing and strong woman you clearly have been put on this earth for a reason!!!

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hated the reader... sounded like a robot half the time. enjoyed the story, a real eye opener. how remarkable that she picked herself up and carried on, very uplifting. a little confused by keeping in contact with him whilst he was in jail... that blew my mind.

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A little frustrating for me I'm afraid.

I found myself so frustrated with her for being quite naive and head in the sand. I completely understand the concept of being manipulated and gaslighting, but she really never seemed to fully accept that he was such a bad person. Even in earlier relationships she seemed to just accept things they did to her without reacting. Probably being harsh as I know it's always clearer to those outside the situation.
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Well narrated, annoying main character.

This narrator did an excellent job, she was easy to listen to and conveyed emotion well.
The story though? It was good, but I found myself so frustrated by the main characters dimwittedness! Her lack of self awareness and poor judgement just made me want to yell at her.

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Exception a l Story. Chilling and uplifting

Kept me on the edge and fully involved. A real-life thriller. A very brave woman.

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I survived

Bloody great book , totally enjoyed all aspects of this book . Great story and outcome for Vicki sadly this happens a lot

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Finished it 24 hours

I couldn't stop listening to this amazing story of survival.

Well written and well performed.

Unfortunately it's another story of DV that, in this case, lead to an attempted murder.

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  • 07-08-2020

Beware sky diving Birthday gift from your husbands, ladies

Narrator’s voice a bit grating. Really wish author had have been able to explain why she thought her husband ‘still loved her’ despite him stealing from her, having multiple affairs, lying to her and just generally being a smuck. I understand about domestic abuse and all it’s forms, but this poor ladies take on it makes you want to scream out loud. She kept saying he would not have wanted to hurt the children! All of the above and killing their Mother, would have certainly hurt them. This book tells her story but doesn’t really explain things properly. I’m left frustrated!!!!!

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  • 10-02-2021

If in doubt, hire a pro

'This book is missing something,' I pondered internally. I scratched my head and the expression on my face became puzzled. 'What could it be?' I quizzed aloud.

Then it came to me. The ends of my mouth turned upwards and I beamed. 'That's it!' I barked happily. 'This book is missing a decent ghost writer and instead we're forced to accept a narrative reminiscent of a year 8 pupil's English Language essay.'

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  • 16-09-2020

What, Why and How?

Its quite distressing to hear how long the abuse went on for in this story and the fact this intelligent person put up with it and blamed herself for so long. I felt aggrieved she even visited him in prison. What a hold one human being can have over another and to what lengths they can be tested before they wake up. A survivors story indeed .

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  • 08-02-2021

I Survived

She certainly did survive - not just the fall but the most manipulative awful marriage. I had heard about this on the news but had not realised the awfulness of it. What a brave and strong woman! Do not hesitate to listen to this story - really made me realise what an absolute gem of a husband I have!

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  • MKMcD
  • 04-02-2021

Interesting listen

Found myself throughout the story shaking my head in frustration as the story was told, lots and lots of signs that Emile was selfish, self absorbed etc especially even before they married when Victoria miscarried and he decided to go on to a planned event and he gave her the car keys to drive home herself, to me personally massive red flag.
What she endured with him she has survived thankfully and hopefully now in 2021 she and her two children are living a great life x

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  • 24-10-2020

Many lessons...especially young women

Hindsight is exactly that.. and learning how many challenges and how many career climbs Victoria made, a reaction could be about the blinders and denials so many think they would have dealt with...but this book is also a lesson in how far women...and men...have not come. Too many children are not raised to be self-sufficient, secure in the fact it is okay to get a founndation in their own life and to find the love we need and want through family and friends without the false belief that your life is not comlplete wiithout a partner. It is not that 1/2 + 1/2 = 1 but that 1 +1 = 2. So many of us find that out so late....children need this understanding as much as math and science. We cant all be rich or own homes or travel the world but we can be happy in who we are. Thanks, Victoria, for being brave enough to share your life and inner growth.. i wish you all you certainly are deserving of.

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  • L. BETTLES
  • 10-08-2020

I Survived!

This book is a triumph in survival...I loved this book I had followed the case when the story broke and I was pleased to get the facts from someone who was there and as a result the book is a record of dark domestic abuse which at times is so uncomfortable to read. Many times during the book your left thinking how could you not know???? But the reality is his abuse had such an acidic hold all she believed was his warped reality.

The narration was excellent and a pleasure to listen to. This book is testaments I the human spirit and I wish the author every success you deserve to be happy.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 25-11-2021

interesting and traumatic story

This book was a good listen! I liked that it was to the point and didn't drone on! Emile put Victoria through a harrowing and abusive relationship and it was good to hear about it from her perspective because it wasn't an obviously abusive relationship in the beginning, so to see it go through the stages was interesting. Overall, this book for me shows how much she overcame and how strong she was to get through it. I wish her all the best for the future.

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  • Arb1993
  • 20-11-2021

brilliant book

Really enjoyed it was gripped, she's definitely a miracle to have survived all that.

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  • TheRealMrsB
  • 14-11-2021

Excellent

This was an excellent account of a harrowing situation. At times it was an excruciating listen, because as the listener you find yourself wanting to scream at the author "look what he's doing, can't you see!" But such is the nature of coercive control, when a person is in that situation, it's difficult it impossible for them to see it.

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