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I Love You but I've Chosen Darkness

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I Love You but I've Chosen Darkness

By: Claire Vaye Watkins
Narrated by: Kristen Sieh
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A darkly funny, soul-rending novel of love in an epoch of collapse - one woman's furious revisiting of family, marriage, work, sex and motherhood.

Since my baby was born, I have been able to laugh and see the funny side of things. a) As much as I ever did. b) Not quite as much now. c) Not so much now. d) Not at all.

Leaving behind her husband and their baby daughter, a writer gets on a flight for a speaking engagement in Reno, not carrying much besides a breast pump and a spiralling case of postpartum depression. Her temporary escape from domestic duties and an opportunity to reconnect with old friends mutates into an extended romp away from the confines of marriage and motherhood, and a seemingly bottomless descent into the past. Deep in the Mojave Desert where she grew up, she meets her ghosts at every turn: the first love whose self-destruction still haunts her, her father, a member of the most famous cult in American history, her mother, whose native spark gutters with every passing year. She can't go back in time to make any of it right, but what exactly is her way forward? Alone in the wilderness, at last she begins to make herself at home in the world.

Bold, tender and often hilarious, I Love You but I've Chosen Darkness reaffirms Watkins as one of the signal writers of our time.

©2022 Claire Vaye Watkins (P)2022 Quercus Editions Limited
Family Life Fiction Genre Fiction Literary Fiction Marriage Haunted Witty Funny

Critic Reviews

"There's some kind of genius sorcery in this novel. It's startlingly original, hilarious and harrowing by turns, finally transcendent. Watkins writes like an avenging angel. It's thrilling and terrifying to stand in her wake." (Jenny Offill, author of Dept. of Speculation and Weather)

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No one in this story was charismatic enough to be so throughly unlikable and unrelatable. Other people’s drug use is boring to listen to/read about

Some beautiful writing but…

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I'm giving up: dnf.
It might be just not what I need right now, but man is this book disappointing.
I wanted real and gritty and I got rambling and abstract.

I can't do another stream of conscious book

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