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I Let Him Go

By: Denise Fergus
Narrated by: Siân Polhill-Thomas
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 On 12th February 1993, Denise's life changed forever. As she was running errands at New Strand Shopping Centre, she let go of her two-year-old son's hand to take out her purse. Denise never saw her son again. In this extraordinary and heart-wrenching book comes the unflinching account of that terrible day from James Bulger's mother, Denise. What if she had never taken James shopping? What if she had turned right coming out of the butchers, instead of left? Would she have seen her son being led out of the centre by two children? Denise's initial hope – of seeing her son on CCTV with other kids - quickly turned to devastation when, two days later, James' body was found. His murder shocked the world, as his killers became the youngest convicted murderers in the UK. Denise then took up a tortuous legal battle for James, and it was her astonishing strength and love for her son that ultimately helped to change the way the law treats victims of crime. This is a mother's tale, of finding a way through the despair to remember the happiness and wonderful memories that James brought his family. Above all, Denise doesn't want her son to be remembered as a murdered child, and with this beautifully written book she does just that.©2018 Denise Fergus (P)2018 Bolinda Publishing Crime Murder True Crime Law Emotionally Gripping Thought-Provoking Heartfelt
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Denise wrote this so well. It was heartbreaking and so so hard to listen too. This poor woman has been through hell that will stay with her forever. I just can’t believe the courts ect we’re worried about those child killers and the way they treated. They didn’t give those thoughts to James. They were evil. If ten year olds could do what they did there is no rehabilitating that kind of evil.

That was rough.

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Denise puts genuine feeling and first hand knowledge to her terrible experience, enabling her listeners to get a clear insight into her terrible experience and life afterwards.

A heartfelt account of life !

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A heart wrenching story from my hometown. So beautifully written and narrated. I will never forget James and the strength of Denise

One of the best books I’ve listened to

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very sad and unforgettable experience for this family.
Denise is such a strong, courageous and loving mother. I'm sure there was days she wanted to just give up. made me go lay next to my little boy and cuddle him all night and not let go.

what a strong mother!

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this was a great listen, sad but still good to know the family's side and their feeling. well written. RIP

teary book

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My Children were 2 and 4 when James was killed, I still remember where I was when the story broke about how he was killed. It still remember the fear that I and my friends felt at the thought it could happen to us. I was one of those mums who bought child reins and stopped letting my children roam more freely. I also lost a baby in later years to still birth and that pain lives with me still after 28 years. I just cannot imagine how Denise has fought for a semblance of normal life and how the system has let her down. This is the 21st century we must be better than this. Every person charged with managing these two criminals must take a greater sense of responsibility to protect society from these animals. It won’t bring James back but maybe we can get some peace for Denise and her family.

A powerful story of heartbreak and determination for Justice.

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This story is gut wrenching to it’s absolute core but the power and fight for justice for her son will make you want hear what more about what Denise has to say. I felt like I was on the campaign, a protest to march for James and question the legal system that protects these vile murderers. You are so brave Denise.

Heart wrenching but Powerful.

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emotional and every mother's worst fear which was to come true for Denise and her family. may James never be forgotten.

heartbreaking.

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Loved it, feel so sorry for the family especially his mum. She is amazing. The two murderers should rot in hell

I let him go

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James will forever be in my heart. Incredible book of his mum Denise's strength and love for her family! Gut wrenching to find out she still has to fight for justice for James after 30 years.

Heartbreaking, a must-read

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