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Dying to Be Thin
- The True Story of My Lifelong Battle Against Anorexia
- Narrated by: Yaz Shah
- Length: 9 hrs and 21 mins
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Publisher's Summary
”The figure looking back at me was little more than a skeleton with just a thin layer of tissue paper for skin, drawn over the stick-like bones. I stood staring for a good couple of minutes, considering what I'd become. And my verdict? Brilliant, I thought. It's been worth every moment of all that hard work.”
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From the age of eight until she was nineteen, Nikki battled anorexia nervosa but few cases have been quite as extreme as hers. Aged just eight and weighing just under three stone, Nikki was diagnosed as anorexic.
For the next eight years, she was in and out of institutions - seven in total - during which time she attempted suicide twice and had to be sedated up to four times a day so that she could be force-fed. At one point, she was sedated for fourteen days while doctors sewed a tube into her stomach, through which she was fed in order to get her weight out of the critical range. The lengths that she went to avoid eating and find ways to exercise excessively shocked doctors who have worked in the field for years. As Nikki says, “I've always wanted to be the best at everything I do, so I had to be the best anorexic - and I was.”
This compelling book tells the story of an incredible journey.
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- melissa
- 26-10-2017
Surprisingly good
I was initially put off by the apparent show of competitive vibe I got from the writer and that bloody Rhodes farm woman that crops up everywhere but the actual book was great don't be put off by the sample or the description this is a great eating disorder read and the writer doesn't come of showy in the book she's raw and honest and humble so give it a try I was pleasantly surprised with this one. Good show niki well done
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- Anonymous User
- 28-11-2022
Fascinating and genuine
loved this story very inspiring. My favourite part of this book was the hospital stays and the temper tantrums, the narrator was very captivating.
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- Anonymous User
- 15-11-2023
The story is incredible
Story is wonderfully written, raw and honest. I do wonder however if the forward was added after Nikki lost her battle. it seems incredibly rude and disjointed from the point of the story, and a little out of touch
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- Pete Shields
- 13-04-2021
A truly special girl
So utterly sad reading this after what has happened but your life was worth living nikki and we love you. RIP darling heart.
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- Anonymous User
- 20-01-2023
sad but eye opener
sad to listen to the hope she had for herself after the fact but the book itself is a good listen, for fans, for people struggling it covers different aspects of her life.
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