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Closet Full of Coke: A Diary of a Teenage Drug Queen
- Narrated by: Hillary Hawkins
- Length: 8 hrs and 13 mins
- Unabridged Audiobook
- Categories: Biographies & Memoirs, True Crime
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Publisher's Summary
A Glimpse Inside a Hidden World
Narrated by the teenage girl who lived it, Closet Full of Coke tells the true story of how a New York suburban fifteen-year-old girl's savvy and wit helps turn the small-time drug business of Armando, a Colombian drug dealer, into a multi-million-dollar cocaine operation that puts them on the DEA's Wanted List.
This intimate diary gives readers a fast-paced glimpse of the couple’s speedy rise to riches, and their inevitable descent.
These wannabe drug lords of the 1980s New York-to-Florida drug scene end their story only three years later with an untimely death, betrayal, and revenge.
Here is a true account of drug dealers whose obsession with money, power, sex, and glamor drives them to a lifestyle of deceit and recklessness, ending in tragedies that destroy lives forever.
This is no ordinary memoir; this is Memoir Noir
From the Author:
I wanted the foolish girl I once was to tell her story without interruption. The result is a diary written like a novel. There is no reflection or analysis. There is a salacious story full of colorful characters and dialog, told by the teenager who lived it.
Drug dealers have an interesting ethos unknown to outsiders. They live by elaborate rules and codes, and use intricate methodology to conduct business. They are far more organized than people imagine, and they see themselves as business people and entrepreneurs. Serious dealers who want success don't use drugs and they deal to other dealers, not to users.
Readers have called it "haunting," "a car wreck you can't look away from," "a roller coaster ride," and "Alice in Wonderland meets Scarface." So if you like the edge of your seat, hold on tight and listen to my story.
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- Amazon Customer
- 16-06-2017
Deeply flawed and hard to listen to.
If this book wasn’t for you, who do you think might enjoy it more?
If you dream of a version of Scarface (minus the intrigue, politics, character arcs or explosive violence) as recounted by one of the girls from Clueless (minus the self-aware humor), this may interest you
Would you ever listen to anything by Indra Sena again?
No.
How did the narrator detract from the book?
The story opens with the inevitable disclaimer 'this story isn't about glamorizing the lifestyle, I wish I'd never done it, blah blah' then the narrator just emphasizes the depthlessness of the central character with her inflections. 'OMG i gave everyone free cocaine and they liked me! LOL!'// 'OMG I like totally gave cocaine to every guy i met and flirted with them all and like, they all tried to sleep with me OMG how did THAT happen!'// (NB the 'OMG's aren't literally vocalised, they are implied by the delivery.
You didn’t love this book--but did it have any redeeming qualities?
It shows that you may live a wild life, but it isn't fodder to write a book without some sort of transformation.
Any additional comments?
The author comes across as the same teenage girl she was when all of this happened. The level of glee she gets in retelling stories of how everyone liked her when she gave out free cocaine is galling. She'll be halfway through a story about her excruciatingly chauvinistic boyfriend , and throw in a reference to how expensive her toilet seat was. If you tell a story of the violent ups and downs of a cocaine dealing lifestyle, you want a character arc, some drama, a narrative through-line, and a narrator who doesn't get the words wrong (you don't PURSUE a menu, you PERUSE it).
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- Willem B
- 20-07-2016
a riveting and touching story
the author brings you into her world for two years while she gets involved with the drug trade and the life surrounding it. as a reader, one empathizes easily with her through the whole thing. it leaves a lasting impression. well worth it. buy this book.
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- Sarah Kelley
- 21-04-2021
indra sena
I loved this book. I've listened to it several times. waiting for next one. sarahk
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- Crystal M.
- 17-06-2020
Just OK
Narration was meh. The story itself was not interesting. Would not recommend. Though based on a true story, leaves a lot to be desired.
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- Norma Jean
- 23-12-2017
HORRIBLE!!!!!!
The accents that the narrator used was absolutely horrible. I couldn't finish the book!!!!
Noooooooo
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- Karen T.
- 10-11-2016
latch key kid gone bad
i loved the narrator of this book. she really made this common story come alive.....she made me feel like the characters were my friends too!
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- Deborah Doyle
- 04-04-2016
Very disapointing
What would have made Closet Full of Coke: A Diary of a Teenage Drug Queen better?
For a book written about someone 30 years ago it was pretty direct and specific. The person reading the book was WAY to dramatic and mispronounced WAY to many words.
Has Closet Full of Coke: A Diary of a Teenage Drug Queen turned you off from other books in this genre?
No, I am just turned off the the Auther and the person that read the book.
How could the performance have been better?
Less dramatization better pronouncing of words.
What reaction did this book spark in you? Anger, sadness, disappointment?
disappointment
Any additional comments?
I had high hopes for this book but all around I have been let down. I am starting to thing the people writing reviews for this book are friends because nothing about this girls life was all that bad. She had horrible parents but no abuse either mentally or physically she should count herself lucky. What is see is a Brat that dropped out of school to sell drugs. I wish I could get my credit back for this one.
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- john
- 30-03-2022
Brilliant book!
This story is so well written and so well narrated it will have you hooked from start to finish.
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