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But I Love Him: A True Story of Love, Pain and Domestic Violence
- Narrated by: Brenda G Brown
- Length: 4 hrs and 11 mins
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Publisher's Summary
As her weak and battered body lay paralyzed on the mattress in her master bedroom, Michelle's boyfriend’s blood dripped from the lacerations on his hands onto her bruised and mangled face. Using what little energy she had left, she broke free from his grasp and fell to her knees, begging God to forgive Paul for what he was doing and to make him stop. Paul simply laughed and replied, “God isn’t going to help you now.” In that instant, Michelle saw her life flash before her eyes and wondered how she got there…again. But I Love Him is a painful yet inspirational true story of a strong, independent woman caught in the horrifying cycle of domestic violence and how she got out.
In this audiobook, Michelle shares the details of her struggle with genuine honesty, taking the listener on a twisted journey of love, pain, and unyielding brutality that eventually leads…to peace. Mixing statistics, research, and resource with her own account, she shows just how far someone in her situation can sink, why it happens, and how they can always pick themselves back up. Those who hear Michelle's story will walk away with a newfound understanding about the horrors of domestic violence, how to escape and how to build a new, healthier life.
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- Kindle Customer
- 05-02-2022
looks over substance lady
omg. what a great choice in partners this punching bag has. lol Paul, lady, is a pathetic drunk narcissistic.
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- Anonymous User
- 01-06-2023
So sorry
As a DV surviver myself I can relate to this book in so many ways. I found myself very moved and saddened by this story and found it reopened wounds from my past. So so crazy how men that abuse women have the same traits. It’s scary and has definitely changed my life and made me afraid to trust or even attempt to opening up to anyone and never want to have a romantic relationship ever again.
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