Recorded on: December 17, 2025

Episode Summary by AI

I get off my desk and talk through a draining family heavy day with long calls and frustration that killed my work output. Lexi is gone and I feel the lack of physical comfort. I notice my habit of over analyzing until I do nothing. I post Blade screenshots to recruit testers and explain competitive self development with public stats, followers, accountability, team mode, solo mode, bug hunting, and week logic fixes. I review Spotify for Creators milestones and worry about missing episodes on Spotify while I reset with a written list.

Notable Quotes From This Episode, by AI

• It's like I'm playing chess against myself and then I never do anything because I see the counter moves that could be played 5 moves ahead of time, but nothing is ever played because I don't even make the 1st move, so it's just mental chess solo royale against myself always.
• It's pretty exciting to find these little bugs. they're not even bug just just errors. It's exciting to go through and find these errors and I guess diagnose the problems to then fix it because then from that point on, I know for a fact that whatever numbers is pumping out from that point forward are accurate and they're correct.
• So, I don't know how this is gonna work. Long term. I don't I don't know how it's gonna, how we're gonna make this happen. But we will make it happen, and Yeah.

Funny, Out of Context Quotes, by AI

• It thinks my my ear is over the phone, so therefore it starts recording a voice memo, or voice messages to send. Fucking annoying, it happens all the time.
• I don't even know 39 people. that I would talk to to share my show, so that's cool.
• I'm walking around my kitchen. There's a lot of reverb in here. I don't give a fuck.

My Thoughts & Feelings for Today - Summarized by AI

I feel emotionally cooked from family stuff and it messed up my momentum. I miss Lexi being here and it annoys me that I even overthink how I sound when I say that. I can see how often I trap myself in mental simulations and it keeps me from acting. The bright spot is Blade progress and the satisfaction of diagnosing why numbers are wrong and fixing them. I feel grateful for the Spotify listeners but still confused by the growth labels. I feel stressed by a stacked list of obligations and I need to just knock them out.

What I Did Today - Summarized by AI

Talked to grandma for 2 hours, talked to dad for an hour and a half, dealt with frustrating family issues, worked a little and left work mid task, posted Blade screenshots on social media to recruit testers, debugged weekly calculation logic and fixed Monday vs Sunday week start, tested home dashboard stats for week month quarter and follower following averages, linked podcast to Spotify for Creators and reviewed wrapped stats and awards, noticed episodes missing on Spotify, wrote a long to do list, watered the tree

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