⚠️ SENSITIVE TOPIC WARNING: This episode discusses eating disorders (Anorexia/Bulimia), self-harm, and addiction.

"To the world, I looked disciplined. But inside, I was starving. Not just for food, but for control."

In this incredibly vulnerable episode of

FORLOVENESS

, Taylor pulls back the curtain on her years-long battle with eating disorders. She reveals the shocking truth that her starvation wasn't about weight—it was a desperate attempt to create safety in a chaotic world of

abandonment

and instability.

Ryan and Taylor discuss the dark reality of inpatient treatment, the "high" of purging, and why medical intervention often fails without spiritual transformation. This conversation exposes the eating disorder for what it really is:

a spiritual stronghold of control.

We also provide practical advice for parents and friends: What

NOT

to say to someone struggling (and why "You look healthy" is a trigger), and how to bring Jesus into the recovery process.

💔 If you are fighting a silent battle with food, body image, or control—this episode proves you are not alone, and freedom is possible.

✝️ Key Takeaways:

•

The "Father Wound":

How abandonment fuels the need for control.

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The Addiction:

Why an eating disorder acts like a drug (The "High").

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Religion vs. Relationship:

The danger of going to church without knowing God.

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Practical Advice:

What NOT to say to someone with an eating disorder.

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Finding Safety:

Transitioning from "fixing it yourself" to finding safety in God.

🕊️ Scriptures Referenced:

Psalm 34:18 • 2 Corinthians 12:9 • Galatians 5:1

HELPLINE RESOURCE:

If you or anyone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, reach out to the National Eating Disorders Association helpline at 1-800-931-2237.

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