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  • Leaving the Saints

  • How I Lost the Mormons and Found My Faith
  • By: Martha Beck
  • Narrated by: Martha Beck
  • Length: 4 hrs and 40 mins
  • 4.7 out of 5 stars (11 ratings)

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Leaving the Saints is an unforgettable memoir about one woman’s spiritual quest and journey toward faith. As “Mormon royalty” within the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Martha Beck was raised in a home frequented by the Church’s high elders—known as the apostles—and her existence was framed by their strict code of conduct. Wearing her sacred garments, she married in a secret temple ceremony—but only after two Mormon leaders ascertained that her “past contained no flirtation with serious sins, such as committing murder or drinking coffee.” She went to church faithfully with the other brothers and sisters of her ward. When her son was born with Down syndrome, she and her husband left their graduate programs at Harvard to return to Provo, Utah, where they knew the supportive Mormon community would embrace them.

However, soon after Martha began teaching at Brigham Young University, she began to see firsthand the Church’s ruthlessness as it silenced dissidents and masked truths that contradicted its published beliefs. Most troubling of all, she was forced to face her history of sexual abuse by one of the Church’s most prominent authorities. This book chronicles her difficult decision to sever her relationship with the faith that had cradled her for so long and to confront and forgive the person who betrayed her so deeply. This beautifully written, inspiring memoir explores the powerful yearning toward faith. It offers a rare glimpse inside one of the world’s most secretive religions while telling a profoundly moving story of personal courage, survival, and the transformative power of spirituality.

©2005 Martha Beck (P)2005 Random House, Inc. Random House Audio, a divsion of Random House, Inc.

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"Martha Beck’s riveting memoir teaches us more about love, spirituality, trauma, truth telling, and hope than all the self-help books combined. It is one of the bravest, most achingly honest books I’ve read in years. Leaving the Saints is a priceless gift.” —Harriet Lerner, Ph.D., author of The Dance of Anger

“A courageous, touching, and beautifully written spiritual journey of the heart. I applaud Martha’s candidness and perseverance in her steadfast pursuit of the power of love.” —Judith Orloff, M.D., author of Positive Energy and Dr. Judith Orloff’s Guide to Intuitive Healing

“Leaving the Saints is a brave book. Martha Beck shares her journey out of religion and into faith and healing with heartbreaking candor, softened by wit and uplifted by a deep spiritual longing.” —Sharon Salzberg, author of Faith: Trusting Your Own Deepest Experience

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Thank you Martha beck.

As a recently exmormon, and an avid reader of Martha’s father during my Mormon mission, I found this book so totally engrossing, cathartic, and a revelation. It’s weird that I would say revelation with all of the Mormon connotations applied to that word. But it’s exactly what it was. Beset by the deep doubts of my current course, Leaving The Saints helped assuage the doubting voices and trust the inner voice I have been following. That her father did these things does not shock me. As a Mormon intellectual rockstar it was easy to get swept up in his all encompassing wake despite my own underwhelming experiences with his talks and books. It helped me so much to understand my different thinking about him. I felt something that others didn’t. While they fawned over him I wondered what all the fuss was about. The universe really is an interesting thing. Thank you once again, Martha for sharing such deep experiences.

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