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Blackout Audiobook

Blackout: Remembering the Things I Drank to Forget

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It's such a savage thing to lose your memory, but the crazy thing is it doesn't hurt one bit. A blackout doesn't sting or stab or leave a scar when it robs you. Close your eyes and open them again. That's what a blackout feels like.

For Sarah Hepola, alcohol was 'the gasoline of all adventure'. She spent her evenings at cocktail parties and dark bars where she proudly stayed till last call. Drinking felt like freedom, part of her birthright as a strong, enlightened 21st-century woman.

But there was a price. She often blacked out, waking up with a blank space where four hours should be. Mornings became detective work on her own life. What did I say last night? How did I meet that guy?

She apologized for things she couldn't remember doing, as though she were cleaning up after an evil twin. Publicly she covered her shame with self-deprecating jokes, and her career flourished, but as the blackouts accumulated, she could no longer avoid a sinking truth. The fuel she thought she needed was draining her spirit instead.

A memoir of unblinking honesty and poignant, laugh-out-loud humor, Blackout is the story of a woman stumbling into a new kind of adventure - the sober life she never wanted. Shining a light into her blackouts, she discovers the person she buried as well as the confidence, intimacy and creativity she once believed came only from a bottle.

Her tale will resonate with anyone who has been forced to reinvent themselves or struggled in the face of necessary change. It's about giving up the thing you cherish most - but getting yourself back in return.

©2015 Sarah Hepola (P)2015 Hachette Audio

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    "Brilliant!"

    A brilliantly written truth about life with and without alcohol. What a gift to any who has been there, or who hasn't.

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    I loved the rawness and honesty in this story, it draws you in from the very first page funny, sad, shocking.....life itself

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    "A very connecting tale"

    Well written and informative a story that has ramifications for a generation of 79"s women. A tough but enjoyable read. Helped me understand my issues.

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    "Very honest and open, totally inspired"

    I loved it, it has always helped me on my recovery journey. Familiar stories and scenarios. Thank you for sharing Sarah

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    "Brilliant listen, great book"

    Went through this suprisingly quickly. Scary how closely it mirrors the life of any modern drinker. Will definitely be holding out for more from the author.

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    "Sounded more like a mills&boon novel"

    i read it was an autobiography, but didnt realise how in depth of detail she described many situations that had nothing to with drinking. it sounded very much like a fictional novel about a women growing up & meeting men who happened to have a drink problem .
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